Well things have been crazy since ive gotten back from hyc. Everything is fallin down hill again well ithnik it was doin that before i left but newaz everything is fallin apart agian but at the same time its gettin better which is weird maybe its cause i can actually look at the future and look forward to it which is carzy cause right now it just looks like alot of hard work but i still have that feelin that somthin amazing is goin to happen and usually when somthin bad happens first theres allways somthin to counter act with it so it doesnt bring you down to terribly much which thats happenin right now but i have this fellin somthin EXTRODINARY is fixin to happen so we'll just have to just wait and see but we really do need to keep goin and nto give up. i didnt really get to say what i wanted to say cause Rebecca froze me up LOl but thats okay. I didnt really know ive made such an impact on people me of all people thats crazy this experience has been the best one ive ever had in my life and I REALLY DO THANK ALL OF YALL OFR YOUR SUPPORT CAUSE I COULDNT HAVE EVER DONE IT WITHOUT YALL I MEAN if yall werent there tellme everything wasnt gonna work out for the better it wouldve never happened casue i would be sitin here dwellin on it and fellin bad instead of doin somthin about it and now i can just turn and laugh about thats what i was tellin jessica earlier that i cant believe that im happy right now and not i a bad mood its crazy cause ive never done this before and its exciting.